December 28, 2008
a little red fish
or the lines on my pamls.
if i surrender my secret wishes
before an empty crowd.
if i went on a journey
in search for an old wise man
to tell me what would make you the happiest.
if i told lies and sold them as truth
and then wrapped them in a song
and declared all that i have done.
if i danced for fools
and kissed in vain just to forget you.
if i did all these things
just to keep you and then to lose you.
these are the offerings of a heart
that is sick with you.
by your's truly
December 25, 2008
December 22, 2008
December 21, 2008
I think the quiet of the snow makes me ponder.
Yesterday I realized in conversation, how I haven't been perceiveing things how they truly are, I make mistakes in my head. I want clarity, I want to see truth. I found that I'm wrong again.
December 17, 2008
December 14, 2008
December 13, 2008
from wikiHow - The How to Manual That You Can Edit
Cuddling is perfect for couples who want to be close but haven’t yet reached the kissing stage (such as middle-schoolers). It’s normal for older couples to cuddle, too. Cuddling is a way to show someone how much you care about them. It’s a romantic, relaxing way to let someone know you care, and an even better way to keep warm on a cold day.
- Ask her if she wants to cuddle first. Put on a movie or something to keep her interested.
- Make sure your breath smells good. Bad breath is a turn-off when you are several inches away from your cuddler's face. haha! the cuddler
- Breathe through your nose, not your mouth.
- Wrap your arms around her, as if trying to keep her warm and keep her close.
- Run your fingers up and down her arm, or draw circles with your thumb. Do this gently, caressing her.
- Squeeze all of your affection into her, but don't suffocate her. Just hold her tightly and make her feel wanted.
- Nuzzle her neck, head, shoulders. Don't get creepy or act like an animal, just be loving and warm.
- If you're at the kissing stage, peck her neck and the tips of her ears gently, or just breathe softly on her neck or ears.
- Tickle her gently. Put your hands around her waist.
- Stroke her hair softly.
- Lightly run your hand up and down her leg. It's okay if you occasionally go a bit too high. WOW!!
- It can go both ways. Lay your head against her shoulder. If you time it right, you may be able to slide down a bit.
- If it's cold outside, lend her your jacket and hug her. But don't force her to wear your jacket.
- Don't wear shirts with transfer designs on them—if she lays her head on your chest, they'll stick to her face. HA! HA!
- Sit close to him.
- Slowly take one of his hands and lace your fingers together. huh?
- Rub his thumb with yours gently. why?
- To get him to put his arm around you, sit up straight and nudge his shoulder.
- Lower your head so it rests on his neck, chest, or shoulder, as if you were lying on a pillow.
- If you want to, wrap your arm around his lower back or stomach.
- Be affectionate. I thought that's what we were doing all along.
- Be sure to let him know what a nice, soft, squishy pillow he makes.
- Be playful. Poke him! He might poke back! If he does, it has the potential to become a wrestling match with a fairy tale kiss at the end! ohh brother
- If he taps his finger and your hand is close to his, hold his hand.
- If you're walking with him and his hands are still, try holding his hand while you walk so it won't be more awkward sitting down.
- If his breath stinks, give him a mint. I think that's a little obvious and embarrassing.
- Be soft.
- Don't fidget -- just relax.
- Cuddling is best for movies (especially scary ones) or times when you have a lot of time to relax and enjoy it. It's best to save cuddling for times when you have longer than a few minutes together.
- Blankets make things cozier.
- Poking can lead to other things. hopefully ;)
- Don't force it! If someone pulls away, they're not ready.
- You have to feel affection to cuddle with someone. Don't try to fake it, your partner can tell! a-ha! sure he can
- If something doesn't feel comfortable, fix it!
- If his/her breath stinks, don’t give them gum. It won’t fix their breath and it will only increase saliva. YUCK! Give them a mint, a polo for example. polo?
Things you'll need
* A partner Duh !
* Affection lots of it ofcourse
* A Rainy Day I would say this is a plus but not necessarily a need.
* Mints (Or if all else fails...gum), you never know!
December 11, 2008
Words are falling from your lips like
Christmas to my hips
So dangerous the strangest feeling of being
I want willow trees and melodies and flowers counting
Hours till he's breathing leaving the rest behind
Cause I'm full of love
Like waves washes sands clean
And the sun sparkles meadows green
I want kisses and dresses
A late night message that cradles, halos me to sleep
Cause I'm full of love
Yeah I'm full of the above
Like a mother leaves her cubs astray
And a teacher leaves at the end of each day
So cover me but lover be patient
Love's ancient but not for me
Cause I'm full of love
Yeah I'm full of the above
Like Christmas stays with you
Walk through darkened streets as we lay true
Lights from your heart lead me to you
December 8, 2008
December 4, 2008
December 3, 2008
These are the moments that make me think that someone is watching over me and they have a sense of humor, I was laughing pretty hard, I was blue no longer.
December 1, 2008
November 27, 2008
November 26, 2008
To some of you this might all sound very sappy and foolish. But I'm honest, and I don't mind sounding sappy for the sake of honesty. I'm a lover. I want the best kind and sweetest of loves, and I won't make any apologies for it. It was nice to remember and to know what my heart is and has been capable off. I will see the movie again a 2nd and 3rd time most likely, as many as it takes.
November 25, 2008
November 23, 2008
1 a: a motion or gesture by which a thought is expressed or a command or wishmade known b: signal c: a fundamental linguistic unit that designates an object or relation or has a purely syntactic function d: one of a set of gestures used to represent language ; also : sign language
2 a mark having a conventional meaning and used in place of or to represent a complex notion
November 22, 2008
November 19, 2008
Samy: when I first heard your name it sounded like a stripper name....
Samy: yeah, like Mercedes, you know..
me: ha? I've never been told that before... I want to get paid like a stripper.
then we both laughed and I continued on my merry way.
November 16, 2008
by fabiola alejandra labra.
November 10, 2008
November 7, 2008
November 5, 2008
I'm sure bloggers everywhere are writing about the same thing, well so am I. History was made last night, first Black president was elected. Even though I didn't vote for him, it's pretty cool that I'm around to see it happened. I can tell my kids about it. I'm not a hater, I think is wonderful that we can all make our own choices and are free to do so. I hope Obama does a good job and goes down in history as a great president, this country needs it. My friend Robin (happens to be black) and I talked about it this morning...I gave her a big old hug. I know how much it meant to her and her family, and maybe that's what we all need right now, not just a change but acceptance. I'm still proud to be American even with a democratic president, I have faith that we will be allright because I know who really is in charge ;)
November 3, 2008
I'm a one on one person, I like it that way. I like intimacy, I like to feel connected , and if I can't then I move on. I'm tired of the walls, the pre-judgements, the fears. I don't want to miss on making a friend because I was to busy scoping the so called "good looking cool people" in a room. I 'm tired of the grass is greener attitude, we have such little attention spans that, it seems like we need constant stimulation.
I think is pretty amazing when you can be with someone and not feel like you have to do or say anything, but just enjoy their presence, maybe even hear their heart beating. I can't compete, I won't , I'm just me. I hope and pray, that with all the technology advancing people will get burn out and go back to enjoy BEING with each other.
There is no substitute to being in your presence and taking in all of you.
November 1, 2008
I went to see him in concert this past Tuesday, I've never been so lucky....destiny sat me in VIP section to watched the entire concert, the opening act Leona Naess and then ofcourse Ray. I sat by myself and have never been so content at a concert, from my view the lights and stage were magical , I felt serenaded sitting in my balcony. Thank you Universe!
I have to add: Ray Lamontagne left his job at a shoe factory after hearing a song by Stephen Hills and decided to pursue music. As I sat and watched him played I thought about this. I was so grateful he left the shoe factory, that he had the courage to follow his heart. And mostly that he believed in himself..... so I and others could here him sing.
October 22, 2008
October 21, 2008
October 1, 2008
September 29, 2008
September 14, 2008
September 9, 2008
The pictures above are from the last few weeks, Wilco, Mountain Man Rendezvous (WY.),family BBQ not in any particular order.
August 28, 2008
August 27, 2008
August 20, 2008
When does love begin after being friends, when does it die and continues to be friendship?
There is a difference between friendship and love, romantic love.
I think is time for me to make the difference actuality.
August 14, 2008
Here is one of his poems.
WE'LL GO NO MORE A-ROVING
O, we'll go no more a-roving
So late into the night,
Though the heart be still as loving,
And the moon be still as bright.
For the sword outwears its sheath,
And the soul wears out the breast,
And the heart must pause to breathe,
And love itself have a rest.
Though the night was made for loving,
And the day returns too soon,
Yet we'll go no more a-roving
By the light of the moon.
August 13, 2008
yeah! am not. I'm an artist. So this is warning to all of you grammar/spelling/ i have a hissy fit with punctuation people. I try.. really, I even hit the spell check, I have 2 languages in my little brain Spanish and English and they like to play little games in my head. I also make up words in Spanish, not on purpose of course, but it's been a source of entertainment that has brought many laughs to my parents. They usually laugh at me , imitate my voice and then latter correct me. All I do is lift my shoulders and laugh with them. So getting back to my warning, or apology , which ever you like. Am not an expert in the English language or the Spanish , but i do have double the amount of words you have in your brain, so bear with me if am not to par with your grammar or spelling. I also am, a free spirit that doesn't like to many rules (it's pretty amazing I do belong to a religion) or regulations when it comes to expressing myself. Sometimes I just write what sounds good to me, well in Spanish that usually how one writes....there are no ghost letters. One last addition to the mix is my ADD or ADHD, dyslexia and well there you have it...So there it is, be patient and flexible with me as i try to get my point across, ok...ok thank you! very muchy
UPDATE: I do have to add that I welcome corrections, I like to learn from my mistakes...so please let me know, graciously Fabiola.
August 7, 2008
I'm one of those people that listens to the words in songs. I can be completely inspired by a line in a song and write a poem about it or just open a whole dialogue in my head (one that can go on for hours, take a break and then come back)
There's a line in a song that lately i been thinking about "Isn`t it time you got over how fragile you are..."
It was a little wake up call...yeah isn't it time...enough all ready.
I'm in a great place in my life, things are not perfect but I am happy.
Not for any reason other than an realization of peace....inner content-ness...A few weeks ago, i had this excitement inside of me. I can't describe it, just happy i guess and I could see some of my friends were a bit sad...like an underling sadness ...it was beautiful to me. Why ? because it's life and that is part of it.
We all can get so sucked into our little worlds, we forget to breath, it's beautiful cause we are alive, we do feel and we are not numb. Insecurities and fears, troubles and loneliness...its all true cause we feel it, it's real. But, if we can just be OK with being OK, with being fragile and then getting over it. SO what! that we had a broken heart, so what we are not there yet, so what !....it's time...it really is..to be here at this moment and take it all in and accept it for what it is. I think the moment we get out of ourselves, that moment we start just being who we really are....and loving all of it, the good the bad and the ugly, then we are then not so fragile. When I say getting over ourselves I mean looking outside of our own perspective, taking off those horse blinder's and seeing everything else, maybe even laughing about it.
I love little kids they are so wise...they want to be strong and tough, they love super heroes and believe in the impossible... They are not fragile, but brave and adventurous (at least most kids are) and the best part of them is that they are so forgiving. No wonder we are told to be like little children they get it and get over it.
Life is not out to get us, we make ourselves fragile to it.
It's time to stop being so hurt and wounded. It's time to get up and get over it.
So it's OK you are not liked, it's OK that things don't work out, it's OK that we make mistakes, it's not the end of you and certainly not the end of life,.
So thank you Miss Anna Nalick...i got it, by the way the song is called " Shine" and the chorus says " shine away".Please do, shine and be who you are (which is not a fragile wounded soul)
I guess I am speaking from experience and being fragile doesn't work for me anymore, it hasn't for a while...I choose to befriend life, with whatever it has to bring. So bring it!
Uh! that reminds me a friend this past weekend passed something someone had told her, she said "EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS A GIFT, EVERYTHING " (that includes all of it)... wow! blew my mind. I'm keeping that one, I'm watering it, giving it some sun and keeping it alive.
-listen to up beat music (i tend to like sad music), I'm changing everything on my ipod
-write on my blog ha!
-wear a necklace (i tend not to wear jewelry which is weird cause i make lots of necklaces)
-wear my glasses more often ( yes i have glasses, but don't wear them to often, is a very tiny prescription)
-invite people to be my friend on facebook, i tend to wait for someone else to invite
April 11, 2008
March 11, 2008
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so called problems
Better put them in quotations
Say what you need to say
Walkin like a one man army
Fightin with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you’d be better off instead If you could only
Say what you need to say
Have no fear for giving over
You better know that in the end its better to say too much
Than to never to say what you need to say again
Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is brokenEven as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide openWhy?
Say what you need to say
March 9, 2008
of your statue-like eyes, or the accent
the solitary rose of your breath
places on my cheek at night.
I am afraid of being, on this shore,
a branchless trunk, and what I most regret
is having no flower, pulp, or clay
for the worm of my despair.
If you are my hidden treasure,
if you are my cross, my dampened pain,
if I am a dog, and you alone my master,
never let me lose what I have gained,
and adorn the branches of your riverwith leaves of my estranged Autumn