November 26, 2008

i'm a lover

I'm tired and sleepy, and it's late. I had to get these things out now that they are still fresh in me. I went to see Twilight tonight, I liked it very much. I haven't felt this way in a long, very long time. I haven't seen a movie that has reminded me of past feelings this way. Not sure what did it, yes it's a love story and yes it has it's romantic moments, but that's not it. I think it might have been an over all feeling between the 2 main characters, their dialogue maybe. I found myself agreeing and almost felt like the Bella was mimicking me. I had forgotten how intense I once loved. How it's possible to love someone with so much certainty and honestly, without doubt. How one could and would love that they would give up everything, even their life for that person, and never let them go, because being a part doesn't make sense. I want that, I have felt that, so I know am capable of it. It's nice to remember. I will not settle for anything else than that kind of love. The word gets thrown around a lot, I've seen situations called love, when they were not. I have my own ideas, I have learned a lot in 14 years of dating, mostly about myself and what am capable off. I want to love that way, who doesn't? who doesn't want to surrender to it, given the opportunity.
To some of you this might all sound very sappy and foolish. But I'm honest, and I don't mind sounding sappy for the sake of honesty. I'm a lover. I want the best kind and sweetest of loves, and I won't make any apologies for it. It was nice to remember and to know what my heart is and has been capable off. I will see the movie again a 2nd and 3rd time most likely, as many as it takes.

1 comment:

  1. i don't think its silly...i felt the same way. Only the most perfect love is worth giving your heart for. You just have to remember that all good things come with some blue days. Even bella and Edward have their bad days :)