I'm determined in making the changes to love life better.
December 30, 2009
I'm determined in making the changes to love life better.
December 29, 2009
December 26, 2009
They are for justice and freedom.
They love their families and country and will fight to the end for it and never retreat,
to defend all that they are and all that is good.
December 24, 2009
December 23, 2009
November 29, 2009
Ralph Waldo Emerson
November 28, 2009
November 27, 2009
November 23, 2009
greek yogurt with honey
black and white pictures
the color of wine
to be impressed
and to laugh so hard my jaw hurts
watching people at airports
clarity and truth
November 22, 2009
November 19, 2009
run run run
i have been numb.
i take a spoon and I have tasted that.
from my toes to my waist, I'm in it, with no way to go
a seat belt will never keep you safe from it
walking on Lincoln road he told me
in a letter I told you
at a taco stand he told me
at night I told you
takes me no time to run, no time.
November 16, 2009
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
September 14, 2009
September 1, 2009
August 12, 2009
I had spend most of the morning crying over losing something dear to me. And this young man how does he do it? Moving from place to place in darkness, how does he find things when they are lost. Makes me realized that as grateful as i am and as much as i complaint, i wouldn't trade my trials for anyone else's. But also made me think that some people, like this young man and are stronger and more courageous than I will ever be.
Today was a good day to be humbled.
July 8, 2009
Silent and starving, I prowl through the streets.
Bread does not nourish me, dawn disrupts me, all day
I hunt for the liquid measure of your steps.
I hunger for your sleek laugh,
your hands the color of a savage harvest,
hunger for the pale stones of your fingernails,
I want to eat your skin like a whole almond.
I want to eat the sunbeam flaring in your lovely body,
the sovereign nose of your arrogant face,
I want to eat the fleeting shade of your lashes,
and I pace around hungry, sniffing the twilight,
hunting for you, for your hot heart,
like a puma in the barrens of Quitratue.
Translated by Stephen Tapscott
Why this poem today? It makes me think of someone, he's not far but runs from me all the time. Love, real love, passionate love, is not easily forgotten, we are fools in love, thinking we can control it. It linger and festers, changing us forever. I have stop running from it , I surrender to it, and will now wait for it to come, it comes, it always comes.
June 12, 2009
Germany :The Melander family of Bargteheide /Food expenditure for one week: 375.39 Euros or $500.07
Japan : The Ukita family of Kodaira City /Food expenditure for one week: 37,699 Yen or $317.25 Italy : The Manzo family of Sicily /Food expenditure for one week: 214.36 Euros or $260.1 Mexico : The Casales family of Cuernavaca /Food expenditure for one week: 1,862.78 Mexican Pesos or $189.09 Poland : The Sobczynscy family of Konstancin-Jeziorna /Food expenditure for one week: 582.48 Zlotys or $151.27 Egypt : The Ahmed family of Cairo /Food expenditure for one week: 387.85 Egyptian Pounds or $68.53 Ecuador : The Ayme family of Tingo /Food expenditure for one week: $31.55
Bhutan : The Namgay family of Shingkhey Village /Food expenditure for one week: 224.93 ngultrum or $5.03
Chad : The Aboubakar family of Breidjing Camp /Food expenditure for one week: 685 CFA Francs or $1.23
June 9, 2009
May 30, 2009
I remember shouting and screaming with the crowd so loud that I couldn't hear myself, but just a ringing and the vibrations. I wish I could write in better words and explain how great and magical this performance was, I was so close to the stage and I felt it all of it, the sounds, the words that came out of his mouth, the energy of a complete heart in which this man Justin Vernon sang. It was poetry to all the senses.
May 12, 2009
May 9, 2009
Me on the trail to Angels Landing, this view seriously makes me want wings !
May 1, 2009
April 28, 2009
April 5, 2009
March 11, 2009
Life needs to be lived as an adventure, new and refresh, if not.... we may lose ourselves in the routine, enclosed in our one-sided bubble.
February 27, 2009
here is an excerpt from my assignment on one of the letters from WWI and my teacher's response, I have also linked the actual letter if you want to read it, very interesting history from a soldier's point of view.
ME : ......After the details of his last bloody encounter he then finishes with focusing on his wife. He asked her how she’s doing and how he misses her. He recollects the memory of them sitting by the lake. He’s sweet and humorous. I like this part the best, he seems brave, sweet and even concern tells her to take care of herself. I find this funny when he’s in the middle of war and she’s in a safer place than he is. How hard it must have been to be in those trenches for so long?.........This week has been the week of letters I wrote one myself and then I read all of these. There is something special about letters, receiving them in the mail and writing them to someone. It’s almost a lost art. Maybe I’m just a romantic, and so the letter by Edward Luckert to me was sincere, I just don’t see the point in writing and communicating to love ones, especially during that time when it was very difficult to communicate, and not putting real sentiments and just writing about the bloody events of war.
TEACHER: It seems to be a common theme- love, love for ones at home. I think that knowledge that someone is there for you can be a very powerful, persuasive force. All human beings desire to feeling valued. All creatures may in general. I'm not a fish, so I don't know. =) I agree. Letters are a somewhat lost art. I recently received one that made deep impression based on the sincerity and concern expressed. I did not know the friendship was valued so much, either. In return, I sent one to a young person in my neighborhood that is an exceptional individual, but gets teased for it. I relayed how proud I was of them and who they were and to never forget that. There is something "romantic" about letters, even if they are not always about an "in love" romance. Some very nice thoughts. Thank you.
February 26, 2009
February 20, 2009
February 19, 2009
February 17, 2009
January 31, 2009
-I would tell you how I was a tattoo artist for a week, I actually did get to tattoo my friend, and found it to be very relaxing, if the opportunity had presented itself I would still be doing it and doing it quite well.
So that's pretty much the month of January give and take.
oH ! this little clip is one of the reasons why I love Jemaine Clements and FOTC. I watched this at least 10 times, ..............NOTICE at 00:06 he mumbles....
January 29, 2009
1. A Person Who Listens When You Bare Your Soul
2. A Person Who Knows You Inside And Out
3. The Person Who Can Finish Your Sentence For You
4. Who Knows Without Being Told That Your Doubting Your Relationship
5. A Person Who Does Wrong, Apologizes, And Then Takes You Out (Fishing) To Make Up For It
6. The One Person Who Annoys The Hell Out Of You, But You Never Can Get Enough Of
7. The Only Person You Hate Seeing With Another Girl Cause You Don't Think She's Good Enough
9. The Only One Who Knows When Your Sad, Angry, or Scared, Even When Your Pretending To Be Happy
10. The Only One Who Can Always Make You Smile, Even When Doing Manual Labour
January 21, 2009
January 16, 2009
I dare you, i double dare you to be happy right NOW !
where you are, right this instant, can you do it? can you be happy just because?
I think you can.... we all can, Defie all reasons and all defeats, just decide.
I DARE YOU!
January 15, 2009
January 13, 2009
Kinda humbling to be so wrong.
January 10, 2009
So I'm 33.... going to be 34 in a month, I'm also an active LDS single girl. I seen to have a reoccurring conversation, it might be because I know a lot of people that are in the same boat. So it's the same scenario, this includes men and women, "Giving up because they are in their 30's and the marriage thing hasn't happen to them".
Now I've been dating since I was 20 ( i had a late start, pretty much the story of my life) so I can understand the frustration, disillusion, the depression that comes from dating over a decade. I've been upset and sad over it, I've been heart broken several times and was even engaged once. BUT I don't understand in giving up on one's religious beliefs because of it, or settling to marry the next stranger that ask you too. I think in my 30's I know better, I been through my ups and downs. I've learned the many lessons about myself and other people, I'm not going to just throw it all out not after 30 years, not after all the tears, struggles, heart brakes and specially because I know for myself what is TRUE. It's not wise to blame God, and go astray from what one has worked for their whole entire life, as if one was a 5 year old having a tantrum because they are not getting the candy they want when they want it. I think that defeats Faith in a higher power.
A happy life is not founded on faithless beliefs or lack of integrity to our morals and values.
I would much rather be single and happy, than in a marriage I created to satisfy my impatience with loneliness, or any other needy insecurity. I think marriage will be a great wonderful thing , if it where to the right person at the right time. I hope that our spiritual journey with God and ourselves is not based on how our lives are going, and at the smallest defeat we give up, we stop believing what we know as true. I believe in a kind Heavenly Father that loves his children, at times by ignoring their request cause he knows a better way. It's sad to watch people make these kind of decisions. They give into self doubt and of course this will diminish their feelings of being loved. I wish I could show them how loved they are, and put their hearts at peace. But I don't have the power to do this, all I can do is be there for them and loved them no matter what. I pray that they make the best choices for themselves and that I can be the best kind of friend I can possibly be for them.
How do we love God?, by not giving up on ourselves......
January 8, 2009
- IF you said the KUNG FU collection then you are RIGHT!!, cause if you didn't know I practice Kung Fu, like for reals, like I get down and dirty with a bunch of boys at a gym. I have a Sifu and everything, yah!
- IF you guess the double video on the right THE PARTNER DANCING THE COUNTRY WAY then you are right again, I am a fan of country dancing. A-ha!
Well there you have it my report on my trip to the DI. I did buy some things too.. like 3 awesome cd's ( Joshua James still wrapped, afrocuban music, Andean music from Chile) a vintage leather jacket and a purse. the end.
January 5, 2009
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