December 13, 2010

If you forget me by Pablo Neruda

I want you to know one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

November 4, 2010

randomly random

Time passes and I have gotten so busy. Don't you love ordinary days. I do! I have nothing to complaint about, everything is as it should be. I'm grateful for that. Have you noticed the Sunsets lately, maybe is just me, but the view from my office at Sunset is perfect! The windows are pretty big so I don't miss the sky on the late nights at the office. Can I tell you that one of my favorite places in the world is my bed, I recently put a memory foam on it. It's a sanctuary. I love it there, a lot of mental work and relaxing is done in such a small place. I been learning such great lesson about life and people lately.
I have realized that i don't like closed minded , rigid, unwilling to learn or to be wrong people. Funny thing closed minded people are so closed off in there perspective that they don't see how locked out they are, and are unwilling to look on to an honesty mirror. I hope I never fall into this. I hope i can see my vulnerability , that I can accept errors and gracefully learn from the lessons I am being taught.

November 1, 2010

MASOCHIST, you one?

I dont believe that people/things that have hurt you, time and time again, should have the best of you. Its suicide. What do you call people that like pain brought on by them, oH yeah ! masochist..... I'm referring to the EMOTIONAL sense..... Emotional-Masochist. Why would anyone put them selves in harms way by someone/situation that has hurt and purposely disrespected you. I don't know ? It doesn't make sense, but we are ALL guilty of it. At a certain point we have enought and learn, or get used to it and like it. Maybe I see it clearly, or maybe the wounds wont heal. Maybe I dont know how to forgive, I definitely don't forget. After 3 times, you are are done!.... I understand we all make mistakes, But at some point we have to take responsibility for what is done to us and how we are going to deal with it. I fully appreciate and with conviction say that I have to take RESPONSIBILITY for how I am treated. Sometimes situations are thrown our way ,and other times, we are participants of allowing the pain to continue. I love pro-activity. I will not be anyones victim not even by me.

October 21, 2010

Excerpt from the article" why you should have sex once a week"

"A healthy sex life may even make you a superstar at the office: Recent research by biological anthropologist Helen Fisher, Ph.D,. suggests that people who enjoy regular sex may be more successful at work, possibly because sex can increase confidence and increase self-esteem."

October 2, 2010

the power one person has.

One of the most powerful videos i've watched.

September 18, 2010

to life !! (the best toast ever...glee has nothing on this)


(uh-khah-yim)–noun Hebrew . a toast used in drinking to a person's health or well-being.

September 12, 2010

"dogs days are over"....oh yes they are.....

And I never wanted anything from you
Except everything you had and what was left after that too, oh
Happiness hit her like a bullet in the head
Struck from a great height by someone who should know better than that

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses?
Because here they come

August 31, 2010

life should always be this fun....!

Ella and the chocolate fountain.

August 30, 2010

i like the scent in the air, the leaves are turning, the days are shorter....i can feel it in my lungs when i breath it in....fall is of my favorite times of year....feels like warm hot chocolate in me belly....mmmm......uhhh caramel apple cider.

August 29, 2010

there is something very romantic about DEFEATING distance to see someone you love.

August 16, 2010

i dont believe in coincidences. with all the synchronization lately, tiny little moments, that go unnoticed to most, are gigantic to me....if you are looking for answers you will find them, they are always finding you....always. just look a little harder and noticed them. the universe is always giving u what u need.

August 14, 2010

.....way up's me

60 foot wall @ hard rock, american fork canyon, Utah.

August 8, 2010

August 4, 2010

i'm grateful

for the rainy evening with hale, thunder and lighting out my window, and for pink and purple skies on my ride home. Thank you.

July 18, 2010

hahha i laughed so hard.

my favorite part is the girl PMSing...its a knee slaper...haha

July 15, 2010

July 13, 2010

to all of you Pretenders....

to all of you pretenders. I see you. I can see through all of it. I feel it all.
You can say how happy you are. That smile is transparent, your pain.
Run with your hobbies and your parties.
Travel far to get away from yourself, But SURPRISE ! there you are.
go ahead with the masterpiece deceiving yourself.
I will meet you in the other side, when you come down to the real.
Intelligence is not based in ignoring or denial.
SO when you decided to give up the act,
I will be here just to remind you,
how normal it is to feel.

July 11, 2010

"Women are never stronger than when they arm themselves with their weaknesses." Madame Marie du Deffand

June 29, 2010

Goodbye Kim.

On Sunday I had a pretty intense church experience, 2 of our members were in an accident, they were hiking and both fell on the river,one was rescue but the other has not been found. Her name is Kimberly Evans, a preschool teacher. I did not know her very well. Last time I saw her a few weeks ago, she gave me a smile as she came into the room. So on Sunday ( 24 hours since she had been missing) we all gather and talked about her at church. The spirit of the meeting was sad and sweet. I know that God exist and he has a plan for everyone individually. I am grateful to know this, and to be able to have faith in a kind Heavenly Father that loves all his children and that things that are out of control are his will. We call them events, accidents, coincidences, blessings, miracles or whatever other word to try to explain it, but it's ultimate his will, and there is peace in that.
The other person involved Joe, has no broken bones, no concoction, only scratches and stitches, after a 20 feet fall into the river with icy water. Kim's body has not been found, due to the level of the river being high, it might be weeks till the water goes down.
So this is life, we come and go, it's what we do in between that time, that really matters. On Sunday i learned that we do influence people around us, someone is always watching us. I can say that Kim was a good influence, even with a smile to me from a far. Her smile is what I will remember. Thank you Kim.

( link to the news-article on the accident)

June 15, 2010

May 29, 2010

"To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget." - Arundhati Roy

May 16, 2010

light up the darkness

where ever you are, where ever you find yourself.....You can , and have full capacity to turn on the light and make the darkness disappear, in any situation , as bleak as it may seem, it's all in your perspective and that can be changed. Just know that there is power in choices. I hope you can see it.

March 21, 2010

"All men dream; but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act out otheir dreams with open eyes, to make it possible.”
-T.E. Lawrence

March 3, 2010

Mobile Burrito Library

Something simple makes such a life changing impact .

February 21, 2010

Winter Night

taken in Park City on a Sundance Film Festival night.

January 26, 2010

There are times in life when you are pushed or put in a place where one has to surrender. To me that means jump to the uncertainty and hopefully be caught by someone or grow some wings. And then life goes on.

January 7, 2010

New Year's resolution: Have more sex

Article........ ( click here)

Yoga instructor Sadie Nardini and her husband got an early start on their New Year's resolution: In December, the New York couple decided to have sex every day for the entire month.

Nardini and her husband, a professional photographer, initially decided to have sex like bunnies in the hopes that all the activity might help them overcome his-and-her bad habits: cigarettes and chocolate, respectively. And indeed, the nightly trysts did help. But they also found, unexpectedly, that frequent sex made them feel better in other ways, too.

Nardini says they both slept better and had more energy, and she didn't get a cold or the flu all month as she usually does in the winter. "Sex doesn't seem at first glance to be the cure for what ails you, but there's so many health benefits of having more sex," Nardini says. "Anyone can be better served by having more sex."

In fact, the experiment was so successful, the couple plans to have daily sex in January, too.

Researchers have long known that not only is sex fun (when done with the right person, of course), but that people who have frequent sex tend to live longer and have healthier hearts and lower rates of certain cancers. These studies also show that men with an active sex life have healthier sperm, and sexually active women have fewer menopause symptoms.