amo

Facundo Cabral

2012-01-18T10:18:00.001-07:00

“Además no es tan malo vivir solo. Yo la paso bien, decidiendo a cada instante lo que quiero hacer, y gracias a la soledad me conozco; algo fundamental para vivir”
― Facundo Cabral

gem club

2011-09-28T17:31:00.003-06:00

2011-09-06T18:31:00.003-06:00

You need not leave your room. Remain sitting at your table and listen. You need not even listen, simply wait. You need not even wait, just learn to become quiet, and still, and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked. It has no choice; it will roll in ecstasy at your feet." F.K

2011-07-25T08:46:00.001-06:00

The power of vulnerability | Video on TED.com

2011-07-20T08:32:00.005-06:00

i learned a lot about myself in this discourse. very interesting.

Hemmingway's character in Midnight in Paris

2011-07-19T08:54:00.005-06:00

"All men fear death. It's a natural fear that consumes us all. We fear death because we feel that we haven't loved well enough or loved at all, which ultimately are one and the same. However, when you make love with a truly great woman, one that deserves the utmost respect in this world and one that makes you feel truly powerful, that fear of death completely disappears. Because when you are sharing your body and heart with a great woman the world fades away. You two are the only ones in the entire universe. You conquer what most lesser men have never conquered before, you have conquered a great woman's heart, the most vulnerable thing she can offer to another. Death no longer lingers in the mind. Fear no longer clouds your heart. Only passion for living, and for loving, become your sole reality. This is no easy task for it takes insurmountable courage. But remember this, for that moment when you are making love with a woman of true greatness you will feel immortal."

facundo cabral RIP

2011-07-09T11:22:00.000-06:00

"I'm amazed to form part of this amazing universe and I'm proud of the hunger that keeps me awake. Because when man is full he falls asleep."- Facundo Cabral ,

RIP you will always be one of my favorite poets.

Bon Iver - Calgary

2011-05-20T07:29:00.001-06:00

the burning house

2011-05-19T08:02:00.002-06:00

If your house was burning, what would you take with you? It’s a conflict between what’s practical, valuable and sentimental. What you would take reflects your interests, background and priorities. Think of it as an interview condensed into one question.

Name: Luca Mariani
Age: 33
Location: Barcelona, Spain
Occupation: Director
Website: www.lucamariani.me

List:

Mamiya RB67
Coconut broken with my head
Macassino Blanco by Gonzalo Malaga
Wood cow used to make my short film MATU
Barbie Glitter Head
Jack Daniel’s with moustaches
Toy gun
Snowglobe of Milan

Name: Lauren Spisak
Age: 34
Location: Cleveland, Ohio
Occupation: Massage therapist; blogger; lover; mad genius
Website: http://www.yeahthatveganshit.blogspot.com
List: (clockwise-ish from top)
• Egon Schiele picture. The one thing in my apartment that would remind me of my apartment and how much I adore it.
• Tiny notebook I keep of the little things I see and experience that bring me joy.
• Franny & Zooey. One of my favorite books and a stand-in for three other things I would take with me which would be:
• My cats—Franny, Zooey, and Esme.
• My box of finished, unfinished, and half-finished writing. Under it:
• My laptop computer.
• My wallet.
• My passport.
• My box of incense and old love notes.
• My camera.
• A pair of pants and a shirt. (In case I happen to be sleeping in the nude when the fire breaks out.)
• Condom. A person should always be prepared.
• Photos. As many as I could possibly carry.

Name: Jamie Apostolou
Location: New York City

Occupation: Engineer

website: http://thestandardedition.com/

List:

Destroyed Barbour Beaufort
Vintage Arsenal FC scarf
New South Wales club tie
Oil on canvas ship painting - gift from Grandmother
Aidan Gill shaving brush
Antique British maritime crest
WWII French Adrian helmet
September 1960 LIFE Magazine featuring PAPA
Book gifted from Great Grandmother - The Power of Positive Thinking
US Passport
Hamilton Khaki Mechanical with canvas band
Brass bottle opener acquired from Dutch sailor
Glasses - Austrian frames, prescription lenses
RL loafers
Vintage L.L. Bean duffle

via the-burning-house.com

2011-04-04T06:57:00.001-06:00

2011-04-03T06:54:00.000-06:00

learning to tell the truth is hard.

The Avett Brothers - Head Full Of Doubt/Road Full Of Promise

2011-03-12T10:29:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder.....for you

2011-03-02T20:11:00.002-07:00

love until we bleed

2011-02-05T20:35:00.000-07:00

blowing birthday wishes

2011-02-01T12:29:00.000-07:00

My birthday is this month, so in an attempt to send out what I want this year to the Universe, I'm posting my wish list. (there are some wishes missing in the list that can never be shared)

ALL SAINTS gift card.
Dinner at the COPPER ONION.
Roll of large CANVAS fabric to paint.
A sweet METAL DETECTOR.
A pair of Sorel BOOTS.
Sunrise in an Air-ballon RIDE.
Trip to the middle east with my sister Paulina.
pair of Toms.
pair of brown BOOTS.
Membership to a Climbing Gym.
Year membership to Wing Chung classes.
Membership to Yoga classes early mornings, in a serious studio.
New LABTOP.
SLR digital CAMERA.
Trip to NYC.

2011-01-21T19:53:00.004-07:00

“I have learned silence from the talkative, tolerance from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind; yet strangely, I am ungrateful to these teachers”

Kahlil Gibran

an idle mind is the devils playground

2011-01-19T21:49:00.004-07:00

So true. I think sometimes, I'm just a few of feeling people in this world. As if I'm surrounded by the passionless. My mind is constant search, dissecting, looking, wondering and pondering on a puzzley life. Am I alone ?, is there someone else out there that likes to think, about meaning full things, deep things...where have the good conversationalist gone?....As I'm writing/reading this I think I sound arrogant... Is not my intention, I miss having long talks with someone that cares to wonder as much as i do. (sigh)

love this movie... Black Swan

2011-01-09T21:45:00.001-07:00

winter tree

2011-01-07T22:04:00.000-07:00

brunch @ the BLUE PLATE

2011-01-01T22:03:00.000-07:00

If you forget me by Pablo Neruda

2010-12-13T20:00:00.004-07:00

I want you to know one thing.

You know how this is:

if I look

at the crystal moon, at the red branch

of the slow autumn at my window,

if I touch

near the fire

the impalpable ash

or the wrinkled body of the log,

everything carries me to you,

as if everything that exists,

aromas, light, metals,

were little boats

that sail

toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,

if little by little you stop loving me

I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly

you forget me

do not look for me,

for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,

the wind of banners

that passes through my life,

and you decide

to leave me at the shore

of the heart where I have roots,

remember

that on that day,

at that hour,

I shall lift my arms

and my roots will set off

to seek another land.

But

if each day,

each hour,

you feel that you are destined for me

with implacable sweetness,

if each day a flower

climbs up to your lips to seek me,

ah my love, ah my own,

in me all that fire is repeated,

in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,

my love feeds on your love, beloved,

and as long as you live it will be in your arms

without leaving mine.

Ghostland Observatory - Sad Sad City

2010-11-20T22:13:00.000-07:00

Ghostland Observatory @ the Depot.......kick ass!

2010-11-20T22:08:00.000-07:00

" All that is necessary for evil to triumph is for good men to do nothing."-Edmund Burke

2010-11-11T08:23:00.004-07:00

Happy Veterans Day !

randomly random

2010-11-04T22:12:00.004-06:00

Time passes and I have gotten so busy. Don't you love ordinary days. I do! I have nothing to complaint about, everything is as it should be. I'm grateful for that. Have you noticed the Sunsets lately, maybe is just me, but the view from my office at Sunset is perfect! The windows are pretty big so I don't miss the sky on the late nights at the office. Can I tell you that one of my favorite places in the world is my bed, I recently put a memory foam on it. It's a sanctuary. I love it there, a lot of mental work and relaxing is done in such a small place. I been learning such great lesson about life and people lately.

I have realized that i don't like closed minded , rigid, unwilling to learn or to be wrong people. Funny thing closed minded people are so closed off in there perspective that they don't see how locked out they are, and are unwilling to look on to an honesty mirror. I hope I never fall into this. I hope i can see my vulnerability , that I can accept errors and gracefully learn from the lessons I am being taught.

..........................smile

2010-11-02T22:53:00.000-06:00

MASOCHIST, you one?

2010-11-01T22:31:00.003-06:00

I dont believe that people/things that have hurt you, time and time again, should have the best of you. Its suicide. What do you call people that like pain brought on by them, oH yeah ! masochist..... I'm referring to the EMOTIONAL sense..... Emotional-Masochist. Why would anyone put them selves in harms way by someone/situation that has hurt and purposely disrespected you. I don't know ? It doesn't make sense, but we are ALL guilty of it. At a certain point we have enought and learn, or get used to it and like it. Maybe I see it clearly, or maybe the wounds wont heal. Maybe I dont know how to forgive, I definitely don't forget. After 3 times, you are out....you are done!.... I understand we all make mistakes, But at some point we have to take responsibility for what is done to us and how we are going to deal with it. I fully appreciate and with conviction say that I have to take RESPONSIBILITY for how I am treated. Sometimes situations are thrown our way ,and other times, we are participants of allowing the pain to continue. I love pro-activity. I will not be anyones victim not even by me.

2010-10-21T12:25:00.000-06:00

Excerpt from the article" why you should have sex once a week"

http://pagingdrgupta.blogs.cnn.com/2010/10/21/why-you-should-have-sex-at-least-once-a-week/

"A healthy sex life may even make you a superstar at the office: Recent research by biological anthropologist Helen Fisher, Ph.D,. suggests that people who enjoy regular sex may be more successful at work, possibly because sex can increase confidence and increase self-esteem."

the power one person has.

2010-10-02T14:09:00.002-06:00

One of the most powerful videos i've watched.

sunday sunset at the salt flats

2010-09-20T18:41:00.003-06:00

to life !! (the best toast ever...glee has nothing on this)

2010-09-18T16:40:00.004-06:00

"dogs days are over"....oh yes they are.....

2010-09-12T14:31:00.001-06:00

And I never wanted anything from you

Except everything you had and what was left after that too, oh

Happiness hit her like a bullet in the head

Struck from a great height by someone who should know better than that

The dog days are over

The dog days are done

Can you hear the horses?

Because here they come

Voices that influence you.

2010-09-05T11:00:00.001-06:00

life should always be this fun....!

2010-08-31T12:58:00.002-06:00

Ella and the chocolate fountain.

2010-08-30T08:23:00.001-06:00

i like the scent in the air, the leaves are turning, the days are shorter....i can feel it in my lungs when i breath it in....fall is coming...one of my favorite times of year....feels like warm hot chocolate in me belly....mmmm......uhhh caramel apple cider.

2010-08-29T13:25:00.000-06:00

there is something very romantic about DEFEATING distance to see someone you love.

2010-08-16T20:12:00.002-06:00

i dont believe in coincidences. with all the synchronization lately, tiny little moments, that go unnoticed to most, are gigantic to me....if you are looking for answers you will find them, they are always finding you....always. just look a little harder and noticed them. the universe is always giving u what u need.

.....way up there......it's me

2010-08-14T19:56:00.000-06:00

60 foot wall @ hard rock, american fork canyon, Utah.

im not a robot.

2010-08-08T22:24:00.002-06:00

i'm grateful

2010-08-04T23:43:00.002-06:00

for the rainy evening with hale, thunder and lighting out my window, and for pink and purple skies on my ride home. Thank you.

the Curse by Josh Ritter

2010-08-02T21:24:00.002-06:00

http://musicremedy.com/audio/index.cfm?fuseaction=showaudioplayer&audioId=46133&quality=6

Happy 150th Birthday Alphonse Mucha

2010-07-24T18:10:00.005-06:00

hahha i laughed so hard.

2010-07-18T20:01:00.003-06:00

my favorite part is the girl PMSing...its a knee slaper...haha

2010-07-15T16:33:00.000-06:00

to all of you Pretenders....

2010-07-13T18:23:00.005-06:00

to all of you pretenders. I see you. I can see through all of it. I feel it all.

You can say how happy you are. That smile is transparent, your pain.

Run with your hobbies and your parties.

Travel far to get away from yourself, But SURPRISE ! there you are.

Pretend,

go ahead with the masterpiece deceiving yourself.

I will meet you in the other side, when you come down to the real.

Intelligence is not based in ignoring or denial.

SO when you decided to give up the act,

I will be here just to remind you,

how normal it is to feel.

2010-07-11T20:54:00.002-06:00

"Women are never stronger than when they arm themselves with their weaknesses." Madame Marie du Deffand

Musical Message Discovered in Plato's Works

2010-07-08T21:05:00.001-06:00

via NPR http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=128288987

Goodbye Kim.

2010-06-29T09:35:00.005-06:00

On Sunday I had a pretty intense church experience, 2 of our members were in an accident, they were hiking and both fell on the river,one was rescue but the other has not been found. Her name is Kimberly Evans, a preschool teacher. I did not know her very well. Last time I saw her a few weeks ago, she gave me a smile as she came into the room. So on Sunday ( 24 hours since she had been missing) we all gather and talked about her at church. The spirit of the meeting was sad and sweet. I know that God exist and he has a plan for everyone individually. I am grateful to know this, and to be able to have faith in a kind Heavenly Father that loves all his children and that things that are out of control are his will. We call them events, accidents, coincidences, blessings, miracles or whatever other word to try to explain it, but it's ultimate his will, and there is peace in that.

The other person involved Joe, has no broken bones, no concoction, only scratches and stitches, after a 20 feet fall into the river with icy water. Kim's body has not been found, due to the level of the river being high, it might be weeks till the water goes down.

So this is life, we come and go, it's what we do in between that time, that really matters. On Sunday i learned that we do influence people around us, someone is always watching us. I can say that Kim was a good influence, even with a smile to me from a far. Her smile is what I will remember. Thank you Kim.

( link to the news-article on the accident)http://www.ksl.com/?nid=148&sid=11342243

the cutest girls I know.

2010-06-26T09:32:00.000-06:00

favorite soccer player Cristiano Ronaldo....

2010-06-15T09:37:00.005-06:00

can you see why?

2010-05-29T22:17:00.001-06:00

"To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget." - Arundhati Roy

light up the darkness

2010-05-16T19:50:00.002-06:00

where ever you are, where ever you find yourself.....You can , and have full capacity to turn on the light and make the darkness disappear, in any situation , as bleak as it may seem, it's all in your perspective and that can be changed. Just know that there is power in choices. I hope you can see it.

by paul ferney

2010-05-15T20:03:00.000-06:00

http://paulferney.blogspot.com/

2010-03-21T18:19:00.001-06:00

"All men dream; but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act out otheir dreams with open eyes, to make it possible.”

-T.E. Lawrence

Mobile Burrito Library

2010-03-03T19:54:00.002-07:00

Something simple makes such a life changing impact .

Winter Night

2010-02-21T08:32:00.004-07:00

taken in Park City on a Sundance Film Festival night.

2010-01-26T09:20:00.002-07:00

There are times in life when you are pushed or put in a place where one has to surrender. To me that means jump to the uncertainty and hopefully be caught by someone or grow some wings. And then life goes on.

photography book 4:16. by Laurent Baheux

2010-01-08T21:53:00.001-07:00

TERRE DES LIONS by laurent baheux from Laurent Baheux on Vimeo.

New Year's resolution: Have more sex

2010-01-07T08:43:00.004-07:00

Article........ ( click here)

Yoga instructor Sadie Nardini and her husband got an early start on their New Year's resolution: In December, the New York couple decided to have sex every day for the entire month.

Nardini and her husband, a professional photographer, initially decided to have sex like bunnies in the hopes that all the activity might help them overcome his-and-her bad habits: cigarettes and chocolate, respectively. And indeed, the nightly trysts did help. But they also found, unexpectedly, that frequent sex made them feel better in other ways, too.

Nardini says they both slept better and had more energy, and she didn't get a cold or the flu all month as she usually does in the winter. "Sex doesn't seem at first glance to be the cure for what ails you, but there's so many health benefits of having more sex," Nardini says. "Anyone can be better served by having more sex."

In fact, the experiment was so successful, the couple plans to have daily sex in January, too.

Researchers have long known that not only is sex fun (when done with the right person, of course), but that people who have frequent sex tend to live longer and have healthier hearts and lower rates of certain cancers. These studies also show that men with an active sex life have healthier sperm, and sexually active women have fewer menopause symptoms.

Im in the business of falling in love with life.

2009-12-30T13:10:00.005-07:00

I found this in an old new paper, and loved it.

...the truth about life is that the joy of living is determined, not so much by what happens to us as the way we look at what is happening. Great living comes from great outlooks. What life does to us depends largely upon what life finds in us. Boca Raton News, Sept, 23 1982

I'm determined in making the changes to love life better.

I keep repeating this song.......Oh baby I can't even explain...

2009-12-29T20:57:00.002-07:00

King Leonidas were are you?

2009-12-26T09:09:00.006-07:00

Where are the men that keep their word?

Their words are to be feared and trusted, because they are prophetic promises.

Where are men that know who they are are, that stand as kings?

They fear nothing except God.

Where are men that can be trusted?

They search their souls fo truth and honor it.
They are for justice and freedom.
They love their families and country and will fight to the end for it and never retreat,
to defend all that they are and all that is good.

I need a man I can admire and adore. Maybe I'm too picky or expect too much, but I will not settle or marry a man I can't admire. I can not settle with just any man, if I want to be the women I'm striving to be.

The Birth of Chirst by Carl Bloch

2009-12-24T14:55:00.002-07:00

To my friends and my country...

2009-12-24T10:09:00.003-07:00

We are not enemies, but friends. We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory, stretching from every battle-field, and patriot grave, to every living heart and hearth-stone, all over this broad land, will yet swell the chorus of the Union, when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature. - Abraham Lincoln's inaugural address

i do portraits sometimes

2009-12-23T22:31:00.001-07:00

this is the Carlson family.

2009-11-29T17:24:00.003-07:00

"To laugh often and love much; to win the respect of intelligent persons and the affection of children; to earn the approbation of honest citizens and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to give of one's self; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exultation; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived - this is to have succeeded."

Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Maison Pestea" for you abuelito

2009-11-28T16:24:00.002-07:00

Last month I was in France, in the basque country. I got to visit the village of Hasparren where my ancestors are from, and I found the house where some of them lived and died. It was in the family for a few hundred years and was built around 1700, it still stands as you can see. Is pretty incredible to me, that I was able to find this house. I have many records from my research that mention the " Maison Pestea" as the place of birth and death. My grandfather spend 2 years traveling in France and lived in Paris for a while, he liked it so much he added to his pen name " Tito Paris". He went there in search for his family and never found them. I feel like I completed the task and even though my grandpa has been gone for a while, I hope he can see how much I have worked on his French genealogy.

2009-11-27T10:06:00.005-07:00

I had a realization yesterday. Email and text and chat are not ways of communications, not when things are important. I knew this, but got sucked into it anyways. Important conversations should be made face to face. Nothing beats the real thing, where you and all your senses can express what is in your heart and mind. To not do this, is messy, as I now know. I am never ever going to do this over email or text or chat, is not worth the misunderstanding. There are times when emails and letters are necessary, but I prefer the real time interaction. I hate how lazy we've become and have replaced people with technology. I'm much kinder and nicer in person anyways. This makes me want to get rid of texting from my phone all together. I'm sorry I took the easy way and not the best way. Lesson learned, will not happened again.

sometimes i blink.sometimes i squint.

2009-11-24T20:06:00.002-07:00

i love

2009-11-23T19:46:00.003-07:00

the muppets, and

poetry .......the romantic era
greek yogurt with honey
heavy blakets
kitchen pottery
boots
french manicures
steak tacos
my hair
manly men
genealogy
black and white pictures
honesty
the color of wine
burning oils
hot showers
to be impressed
and to laugh so hard my jaw hurts
books
paintings
admire someone
watching people at airports
warm laundry
new beginings
intelligent conversation
clarity and truth
courage

2009-11-22T20:42:00.003-07:00

"It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you're not." -Andre Gide

Joshua James

2009-11-20T15:02:00.004-07:00

2009-11-19T07:30:00.002-07:00

how long does it take you to run away.
run run run
i have been numb.
i take a spoon and I have tasted that.
from my toes to my waist, I'm in it, with no way to go
a seat belt will never keep you safe from it
walking on Lincoln road he told me
in a letter I told you
at a taco stand he told me
at night I told you
takes me no time to run, no time.

Invictus by William Ernest Henley

2009-11-16T10:46:00.005-07:00

OUT of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

want someone to sing this to me.

2009-10-05T08:50:00.001-06:00

2009-09-14T14:28:00.004-06:00

I adore the rain
the roaring and the thunder callin
the freshness moves in.
like this , I wish it would stay for a little longer.
and you company me.
louder louder it poures.

Lesson in a Chili's

2009-09-01T07:52:00.004-06:00

Spend enough time walking downtown and you 'll have stories to tell. I met a man yesterday , his name is Ayi Ayi from West Africa, he's a refuge and was stranded until his sponsor met up with him this Thursday. He was hungry and asked me for food, not money. Now I have to just say I'm not the kind of person that gives money to the beggars every time I see one, and in no way I'm trying to brag, this is not something I would normally do, buy a complete stranger dinner at Chili's, and sit with him as he ate. But ,I did feel at the moment I should ,so i did. He had been in a concentration camp for 9 months in his homeland of Togo, before he had been seen sent here, he was tortured and his eyesight had been damaged because of it. His family was killed in a bombing. I was completely intrigued, between the smiles of eating food and watery eyes of the painful experiences he had lived since last week being in the streets, I felt an immense sense of gratitude, that I could in some way help him and make his journey a little better. The were a lot of thank yous and mercies, he expressed his gratefulness. Last night and this morning I woke up thinking about him, I do not understand the reasons for suffering in the world, but I do know that we can be part in someones healing, that we can help even with a meal, or a few minutes of listening to someone. That day he helped me more that what I believe I did for him. Is not everyday I have the opportunity to meet men of courage, in fact it's very rare, but when it does happen, I'm changed a bit and forever.

bad and good day

2009-08-12T19:21:00.007-06:00

I don't know what has kept me from writing. There hasn't been a lack of things. Today I had a bad day. I know we all do, every few weeks or once a month.I'm not going to bore you with details, but it had me on my knees praying for some light. Then, after my pouting and tantrum I took the bus downtown. The bus is a very strange place. All sorts of characters meet there. For me, the bus ride always makes little more thankful along with a reality check, as if while riding I'm given a lesson in life. Today wasn't any different. I sat across a young man, blind and riding the bus. I couldn't keep me eyes from him his dead eyes, he had his long stick and beside him, attentively waiting for his bus stop. When he got off, i was a little worried for him, but this is my lack of faith you see, he's gone all his life without my help. He seemed to know where he was going with out really seeing it.
I had spend most of the morning crying over losing something dear to me. And this young man how does he do it? Moving from place to place in darkness, how does he find things when they are lost. Makes me realized that as grateful as i am and as much as i complaint, i wouldn't trade my trials for anyone else's. But also made me think that some people, like this young man and are stronger and more courageous than I will ever be.
Today was a good day to be humbled.

poem by Pablo Neruda

2009-07-08T21:34:00.007-06:00

I crave your mouth, your voice, your hair.
Silent and starving, I prowl through the streets.
Bread does not nourish me, dawn disrupts me, all day
I hunt for the liquid measure of your steps.

I hunger for your sleek laugh,
your hands the color of a savage harvest,
hunger for the pale stones of your fingernails,
I want to eat your skin like a whole almond.

I want to eat the sunbeam flaring in your lovely body,
the sovereign nose of your arrogant face,
I want to eat the fleeting shade of your lashes,
and I pace around hungry, sniffing the twilight,
hunting for you, for your hot heart,
like a puma in the barrens of Quitratue.

Translated by Stephen Tapscott

Why this poem today? It makes me think of someone, he's not far but runs from me all the time. Love, real love, passionate love, is not easily forgotten, we are fools in love, thinking we can control it. It linger and festers, changing us forever. I have stop running from it , I surrender to it, and will now wait for it to come, it comes, it always comes.

2009-06-12T13:55:00.009-06:00

Interesting perspective and quite sobering....Remarkable images of families from different parts of the world. They're surrounded by the food they consume in one week; we're also told the cost of that food. This is a way of showing the differences in the world.
Germany :The Melander family of Bargteheide /Food expenditure for one week: 375.39 Euros or $500.07

United States : The Revis family of North Carolina /Food expenditure for one week: $341.98

Japan : The Ukita family of Kodaira City /Food expenditure for one week: 37,699 Yen or $317.25 Italy : The Manzo family of Sicily /Food expenditure for one week: 214.36 Euros or $260.1 Mexico : The Casales family of Cuernavaca /Food expenditure for one week: 1,862.78 Mexican Pesos or $189.09 Poland : The Sobczynscy family of Konstancin-Jeziorna /Food expenditure for one week: 582.48 Zlotys or $151.27 Egypt : The Ahmed family of Cairo /Food expenditure for one week: 387.85 Egyptian Pounds or $68.53 Ecuador : The Ayme family of Tingo /Food expenditure for one week: $31.55

Bhutan : The Namgay family of Shingkhey Village /Food expenditure for one week: 224.93 ngultrum or $5.03

Chad : The Aboubakar family of Breidjing Camp /Food expenditure for one week: 685 CFA Francs or $1.23

2009-06-09T20:50:00.000-06:00

....the rain drops are singin your name, so loudly. Makes the wanting inescapable.

2009-05-30T01:09:00.003-06:00

I was in Washington last weekend @ Sasquatsh Festival, and I got to experience this:

I remember shouting and screaming with the crowd so loud that I couldn't hear myself, but just a ringing and the vibrations. I wish I could write in better words and explain how great and magical this performance was, I was so close to the stage and I felt it all of it, the sounds, the words that came out of his mouth, the energy of a complete heart in which this man Justin Vernon sang. It was poetry to all the senses.

laughin me bootie off

2009-05-12T19:10:00.005-06:00

This commercial takes me back to my hometown, how i love that Cuban accent. This is a real commercial by the way !

Zion National Park

2009-05-09T15:26:00.008-06:00

I went to Zion a few weeks ago, it was my first time. A little while back someone had promised me they would take me, ...such are broken promises. I'm so glad I didn't wait, What a lovely place ! I want to go back and stay at the Lodge. I only got to do the Angels Landing trail, so there is lots more for me to explore. you like my socks? got tons of compliments on the trail, there are alot of people out there that are fans of socks, let me tell you !
Me on the trail to Angels Landing, this view seriously makes me want wings !

I've never seen a leaf like this, I never tired of the nature's designs.

why is this so cute....

2009-05-01T16:57:00.004-06:00

Tummy Tubs ??
http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/30499759/?GT1=43001

2009-04-28T22:52:00.002-06:00

I have been silent for a while. I've had things to say but didn't feel like putting them into lines and ideas. Ignoring them felt right. I'm taking responsibility tonight for all that was thought and not said. I wonder at times why is it that we are so unaware of ourselves, I have always been curious about my inner workings, and I dive into dissecting my behaviour and putting reasons behind it. I take life too seriously. I do! I like to be aware of what the hell I'm doing with my life. How I spend my time and with who. I'm responsible for my feelings and even for the things that I do and I'm not aware. For who I choose to listen to and have them affect my life. I'm responsible for all of it. So in my attempt to be a little bit more aware and responsible for my actions, I choose to ignore life a bit and not take it too serious. Because, in the end it all comes out in the wash, expectations are imaginary and I choose to be like waters that run, flexible and free.

let me go tonight...

2009-04-27T00:14:00.002-06:00

Lykke Li - Tonight from Lykke Li on Vimeo.

2009-04-05T01:50:00.004-06:00

still call me baby
when you say you are not in love
we are too far gone
just call me by my name
i reach for the door
stand back and wait
still call me baby
he never thinks

what's in your heart?

is all i want.
think
not to feel
when you call me baby
nothing

loudest sound of silence

retro.....cause i'm going back

2009-03-11T06:40:00.007-06:00

I'm in Miami, my hometown. I have so many distorted and fuzzy memories of this place. I visited with friends and lovers. In conversation there is a lot I don't remember, so I realized. Funny, life can be so different in another place and yet the same. Is nice to walk the streets I walked many years ago, and do a retro-inspection. I'm not the same , not the same girl that lived here. My heart is with the mountains now and I would not trade them for this humid tropical weather. Life is good, I'm off to Ecuador today to the land of my birth. I will go to the places where I live as a tiny little girl. I'm hoping to uncover some hidden memories . I will see Ecuador after 25 years. So here I go...

Life needs to be lived as an adventure, new and refresh, if not.... we may lose ourselves in the routine, enclosed in our one-sided bubble.

deliciouso!

2009-03-10T06:05:00.005-06:00

letters

2009-02-27T23:47:00.010-07:00

don't know if it happens to you often, but i sometimes have a reoccurring theme, they show up in conversations and at random times. Like lately it's been letters. I was asked to write one, and then in class I read 6 from WWI, also I taught a lesson at church about letters. So what is life trying to teach me, why letters? The one I recently wrote was not an easy one to write, I wanted to pour my heart into it. Who knows what the reader felt when they received it, all i hope is that it was taken well. Letters to me have a kind way of being. They are not presumptuous, but just are and one can go back to them at any time. A long time ago, i wrote myself a letter and then opened it a year later at the schedule date. Letters are just powerful and that power has been present lately.

here is an excerpt from my assignment on one of the letters from WWI and my teacher's response, I have also linked the actual letter if you want to read it, very interesting history from a soldier's point of view.
ME : ......After the details of his last bloody encounter he then finishes with focusing on his wife. He asked her how she’s doing and how he misses her. He recollects the memory of them sitting by the lake. He’s sweet and humorous. I like this part the best, he seems brave, sweet and even concern tells her to take care of herself. I find this funny when he’s in the middle of war and she’s in a safer place than he is. How hard it must have been to be in those trenches for so long?.........This week has been the week of letters I wrote one myself and then I read all of these. There is something special about letters, receiving them in the mail and writing them to someone. It’s almost a lost art. Maybe I’m just a romantic, and so the letter by Edward Luckert to me was sincere, I just don’t see the point in writing and communicating to love ones, especially during that time when it was very difficult to communicate, and not putting real sentiments and just writing about the bloody events of war.
TEACHER: It seems to be a common theme- love, love for ones at home. I think that knowledge that someone is there for you can be a very powerful, persuasive force. All human beings desire to feeling valued. All creatures may in general. I'm not a fish, so I don't know. =) I agree. Letters are a somewhat lost art. I recently received one that made deep impression based on the sincerity and concern expressed. I did not know the friendship was valued so much, either. In return, I sent one to a young person in my neighborhood that is an exceptional individual, but gets teased for it. I relayed how proud I was of them and who they were and to never forget that. There is something "romantic" about letters, even if they are not always about an "in love" romance. Some very nice thoughts. Thank you.

2009-02-26T23:34:00.000-07:00

dim and quiet

guitar strumming

i sit quietly

listening to thoughts pass

waves are in my eyes

are we to far gone?

can nothing be done?

all i know

it's all i know

you have it all

latin rock....umm more like Latin Indie

2009-02-20T15:39:00.002-07:00

Juana Molina * Un dia (one day)

i'm good and i'm gone

2009-02-19T09:20:00.008-07:00

like this song....2 different versions one in a cab and the other in a bathroom, i think the acoustic is brilliant.The last on is the album version...

the original video is here : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=30fSrn7MlmU

My 34th birthday

2009-02-17T23:34:00.002-07:00

My birthday was on Sunday. I spent most of my day in my room, writing a 4 page photograph analysis . You know i can't remember the last time I had a birthday cake. It just not right! for dinner I had left over carrot soup I made a few days before. Where was my family you ask ?(here i live with them). It's always a little strange to admit when your family is lacking in something. Well this is not a pity party for me or a trash my family post. But I have to admit I learned Sunday, that I like to be appreciated on my birthday. One day out of the year that they could have made dinner thinking about me (I'm allergic to wheat). It would have been nice to be considered on my birthday. No birthday cake, not even dinner. I was upset and then I got over it, all the birthday wishes on facebook from friends and acquaintances help me with that.

I want to remember your birthday and celebrate your life. I don't want to forget it and certainly don't want to have it pass by just like any other day. When I was little my birthday parties were huge, my mom would spend months preparing. She would even make a pinata by hand ,usually in the form of a character I had requested. What happened? I'm in my 30's, am I to old to celebrate with cake? I don't think so, age is not a requirement for blowingout candels, well maybe if you're on a respirator. Anyways my frustration was expressed, because one thing that is not lacking from my family is communication, we get everything out, almost to a fault. I just wondered do I treat other people the same way? I hope not. The next day was my father's birthday, well I made sure he had a cake, so I baked it, even if i couldn't partake because it was made out of wheat, that wasn't the point. I wanted him to feel loved and cared for on HIS day.

January

2009-01-31T21:58:00.019-07:00

It's been a while since I wrote about what's going in this thing called life, maybe it's because I can't seem to sit still long enough to put my thoughts together. I will share some of the things that have happen in the last month. (I have linked the colored words to explain what i'm talking about)

-I would tell you how I was a tattoo artist for a week, I actually did get to tattoo my friend, and found it to be very relaxing, if the opportunity had presented itself I would still be doing it and doing it quite well.

-I would tell you I'm a good student and if I spend more time studying I be even better.

-I would tell you that I feel like the last months I have felt a different feeling out in the world.

-I would tell you that the words "Not my will but thine be done" has changed and settled in my mind like never before.

-I would tell you about my reading and research has open my brain like a clear skies after a storm, things make more sense to me.

-I would tell you I miss someone I didn't expect to miss, and that part of loving someone is accepting their adoration for you, believing them when they do.

-I would tell you that a beautiful voice and talent doesn't require a slim figure, and thank goodness the entertainment world is recognizing that..... Her concert was really good.

-I would tell you that there is peace in the not knowing.

-I would tell you that I will be teaching Kung Fu to a bunch of 6 year olds starting Monday.

-I would tell you that my place of birth is calling for a visit.

-I would tell you that my faith is stronger and some days there is no choice but to believe.

-I would tell you that politics is dirty,and I put my trust in God.

-I would tell you how I like and enjoy my room, the lighting and the space, my Interior Design teacher would have been proud.

-I would tell you about how anxious I have been lately, so much that i want to do and I'm overwhelmed.

-I would tell you how much I like history, and how I watched the HBO John Adams series all in one day.

-I would tell you about a concert I went to, the man singing restored my faith in hot, manly, sweet men.

-I would tell you that Jemaine Clement from Flight of the Concords, is one of my favorite people.

So that's pretty much the month of January give and take.

oH ! this little clip is one of the reasons why I love Jemaine Clements and FOTC. I watched this at least 10 times, ..............NOTICE at 00:06 he mumbles....

so talented at making me laugh.

Dorky maybe, but it had me laughing......

2009-01-29T21:49:00.005-07:00

The Colbert ReportMon - Thurs 11:30pm / 10:30c

Better Know a Beatle - Paul McCartney

Colbert Report Full Episodes
Paul McCartney Appearance

Funny Political Videos
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Defenition of Buddie

2009-01-29T13:49:00.002-07:00

I found this in the Urban Dictionay online
Buddie
1. A Person Who Listens When You Bare Your Soul
2. A Person Who Knows You Inside And Out
3. The Person Who Can Finish Your Sentence For You
4. Who Knows Without Being Told That Your Doubting Your Relationship
5. A Person Who Does Wrong, Apologizes, And Then Takes You Out (Fishing) To Make Up For It
6. The One Person Who Annoys The Hell Out Of You, But You Never Can Get Enough Of
7. The Only Person You Hate Seeing With Another Girl Cause You Don't Think She's Good Enough

8. The Person Who Acts Like Your Brother, Chauffeur, Body Guard, Best Friend, and Sometimes More.
9. The Only One Who Knows When Your Sad, Angry, or Scared, Even When Your Pretending To Be Happy
10. The Only One Who Can Always Make You Smile, Even When Doing Manual Labour

yes, i am an artist.

2009-01-25T17:54:00.005-07:00

2009-01-21T23:46:00.003-07:00

take away everything that feels fine
catch a shape in the circles of my mind
make me feel like I belong to you
make me feel it even if it ain't true

amo